"Why Me?"

From the time I was diagnosed with cancer, not once in that context have I thought, "Why me?" Shortly after being diagnosed, I can remember thinking, "Well, why not me?" Particularly in recent years, I had tried to be careful about diet, exercise, and check-ups. So what? All that healthy living can do is improve the odds. Anyone can get cancer. 

But I must admit that when I think about my medical oncologist's estimate that someone with my cancer diagnosis who underwent the surgeries and chemotherapy slated for me should have about a 20 percent chance of being cured, I cannot help thinking, "Why me?" Why should I be the one out of five who makes it?