What to Do Now?

Today, I took two 5 mg doses of Oxycontin, for a total of 10 mg or one quarter of the maximum 40 mg daily dose that MSKCC prescribed for me. The drug arrested my pain, but it also has paralyzed what is left of my colon. Having gotten only about three hours of sleep last night plus a nap of about an hour's duration today, I am exhausted. When I go to sleep, I reawaken almost immediately from an urge to have a bowel movement, which my inert colon is incapable of delivering. In the absence of better ideas, I will keep drinking a lot of water, not eat, and try to stay awake. I have a previously scheduled appointment tomorrow (Thursday) afternoon with Dr. Glare at MSKCC. 

However well intended, feeding drugs to terminal cancer patients, especially drugs to counteract the side effects of other drugs, strikes me as ofttimes mad. Predicting the side effects of any drugs in people as compromised as incurables who have previously been subjected to various draconian treatments seems to me to be guesswork, however educated.